I am doodling this at 1230am, despite having a major exam tomorrow at 8am.
As 2 days of practical exams had gone by, it is hard not to cry over spilt milk. I would assume all the blame put forth upon me as I believed it was truly my fault for not gaining enough knowledge, and by taking everything at face value.
Here the situation goes. My practical exam questions for day one was written clearly in the guidebook in the ‘good to know’ section, as it would be further covered in depth once I reached the 6th year. However, now that the situation arises, I had no place to turn back, and relied solely on my ankle depth knowledge and pure logics. After several minutes of unfruitful shots, the examiner was pitiful on me, as he too did not want to put me in the situation.
On day two however, the situation again arises for me to search between the sulci and gyri of my pea-brain, to encounter the same patient, today, with another examiner. Having went through hell yesterday, I went home totally putting the story behind me (read: had no intention of re-reading the part where I couldn’t answer). Who could expect that, of all the patients available in the wards, I would be meeting the same guy again? This time around, the examiner showed no mercy.
So in the end, I came home today, totally lost my motivation to study. What’s the point if more than 60% had already gone down the drain ... I don’t really know my results yet, but I am sure it’s not gonna be stellar